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2009-08-24T01:14:00.001-07:00

sian. i hate my life. everything around me sucks. i wish i can just ...dissapear from the face of the earth and never see daylight ever again. My life is just so...terrible and boring. I've finally given up on myself.yay.

2009-08-17T23:29:00.001-07:00

Today was just horrible. Do you know how does it feel? To be acting in front of your classmates, your friends, desperately trying to convince them that you are all right when you know that you are definitely not feeling okay?Why must it be like this for me? Why not someone else?I feel just like I’m in a nightmare now. Only deep down, I know that this is more than just a nightmare. That I won’t wake up to find it all a nightmare.

2009-08-16T19:56:00.000-07:00

ALONE.I HATE MY LIFE. WHY MUST IT BE THIS WAY?WHY?WHY??????DAMN IT. WHY MUST IT BE THIS WAY?LEAVE ME ALONE.ALL OF YOU. FRIENDS. FAMILY. I HATE ALL OF THEM. WHY DON’T THEY EVER UNDERSTAND. I HATE ALL OF YOU. I HATE MY LIFE. ALL OF IT. EVERY PART OF IT.I HATE EVERYTHING.MY LIFE’S IN RUINS.HOW I WISHED I HAD NEVER EXISTED.LEAVE ME ALONE. ALL OF YOU. PLEASE. I AM BEGGING YOU ALL. JUSTT LEAVE ME ALONE.

2009-07-15T23:43:00.000-07:00

sian...
lol.i feel like i'm getting more and more emotionless as every day passes. I dont feel anything at all. not love, not pain.haha. so goooood right? though i think i'm kinda sadistic though. I love seeing people in pain. haha. my parents think that i might grow up to be a mas selamat. lol. haha.

2009-05-18T00:28:00.000-07:00

wa lao. telematch was bloody fucking gay la. and now i got bloody lot of homework have not even completed yet. damn la. fuck everything la. got a bloody cut from gladiator. dun even know how i got it la. and i got 15.5 for my fucking maths test la. bloody gay shit. damn la. and dunno which asshole of a teacher go say i sleep and dunno thinking of wad during classes. not one teacher man. got quite a few tell my parents la. damn it la.

2009-05-12T00:12:00.000-07:00

ARGHHHHHHHH!
PLTC was just horrible. didnt even have time to sleep man. slept only for 2 hours in three days and xin yi thinks that she is the only one in sleep debt!!!WTF!!! didnt even have the time to do my homework then la. thats partly why i never update my blog. lol. anyways. i just passed my fucking maths test man. got 15.5:( heck. arrrgh. lifes a misery. i wonder what i live for. to be screwed by my piano teacher??? To fail my maths test constantly??? i will never find out man. argh... and i have to skip part of the combined telematch just for a fucking belated mother's day celebration man. but the good thing is i will be missing a lot of pumpings and i will be meeting my cousin:)

2009-04-27T00:22:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday, we went dragon boating. Man. was it fun. We had our stupid badge test in the morn first.I am proud to say that I failed my haversack. Still not sure whether I passed my trek symbols yet. Hopefully, I have:) After lunch, we went to somewhere in Kallang for our dragin boating course:) I had a wild of a time out there and definitely enjo. Theodore wad acting like a mad lunatic, screaming and laughing throughout the entire jouney. There was a lot of splashing going on between the 2 boats throughout the entire thing and I drenched from head to toe(thanks to helpful theodore). Terence dropped his specs in the water and in the end, it got fished out by the conductor. haha. Lucky I had my haversack test in the morn man. It saved me. I had a complete set of dry clothings inside. Some of the other scouts packed everything but forgotten to pack their underwear.lol. they had to go back with dripping wet underwears and all of us had a good laugh at them. I cant imagine a certain year 1 scout going back with a wet underwear man. It was hilarious. went back with yong lun and benedict.It was definitely fun man.

2009-04-22T01:31:00.000-07:00

wow
last saturday was absolutely shiok man. went out with my family and relatives. the food offered at the restaurant we were supposed to dine at was good but there was no air-con. so, smart me has decided to package my dinner with my cousin. we went back to our grandparents place to eat alone. haha. was very fun. we had a long talk about the ****ing muggers in our class who study whole day longXD then our parents returned and the string of magic words used to describe the muggers automatically stoppedXD How i wish i could have another day like that. Sooooooooooooo fun manXD

2009-04-15T00:12:00.000-07:00

Another boring day...sigh...so much for returning us our mockingbird test papers. didnt even tell us our marks...zzz. keep us in suspense for wad? hope i do okay for the test. school was boring, nearly fell asleep during maths. was very, very boring. and the pop quiz was not so hard as i had expected. sigh...... gonna sleep now..zzz....

2009-04-13T23:15:00.000-07:00

whoots! met mr swee yesterday. he said i did quite well for the LA mockingbird quiz. gyess i dint screw up. school was a bore as usual. nearly fell asleep in classXD sigh...... feel so tired now.zzzzz......

2009-04-13T00:07:00.000-07:00

SIGH.....boring day in school. Boring teachers give rise to bored studentsXD My day is so screwed man. Screwed up LA test. prepared to take Remedial lessons for LA. I dun give a DAMN if I pass or fail the LA test. Though I know there is a 99% chance of me failing. SIGH... wad a boring day to start on...

2009-04-12T04:08:00.000-07:00

sighzzz.what a boring dayfull of homework again.