sian. i hate my life. everything around me sucks. i wish i can just ...dissapear from the face of the earth and never see daylight ever again. My life is just so...terrible and boring. I've finally given up on myself.yay.

Today was just horrible. Do you know how does it feel? To be acting in front of your classmates, your friends, desperately trying to convince them that you are all right when you know that you are definitely not feeling okay?Why must it be like this for me? Why not someone else?I feel just like I’m in a nightmare now. Only deep down, I know that this is more than just a nightmare. That I won’t wake up to find it all a nightmare.

ALONE.I HATE MY LIFE. WHY MUST IT BE THIS WAY?WHY?WHY??????DAMN IT. WHY MUST IT BE THIS WAY?LEAVE ME ALONE.ALL OF YOU. FRIENDS. FAMILY. I HATE ALL OF THEM. WHY DON’T THEY EVER UNDERSTAND. I HATE ALL OF YOU. I HATE MY LIFE. ALL OF IT. EVERY PART OF IT.I HATE EVERYTHING.MY LIFE’S IN RUINS.HOW I WISHED I HAD NEVER EXISTED.LEAVE ME ALONE. ALL OF YOU. PLEASE. I AM BEGGING YOU ALL. JUSTT LEAVE ME ALONE.